This is going to be short. I just need to pour out what has been on my mind lately. It's a story about my best friend. The old ones - and the best I have ever had.
Well, the thought first came into my mind after reading the book called Girl Online by Zoe Sugg.
Zoe wrote in one of the chapters, about what Penny (the main characters) feels about her best friend, Megan. Megan was not the same person as Penny used to know.
So reflecting it back into my life. I kinda feel the same. Well.. Similar. Definitely not a good feeling to have.
This girl I called best friend. We know each other one year after we were born. Our house were close to each other, our parents know each other, we went to the same school, same course. There's no single reason for us not being best friend. It felt amazing, to always have someone that can back you up.
She is everything..
or was?..
Well. About her personality. She may not be the kindest or most caring person in the world. Sometimes she insult, do and say whatever she want, get mad without reason, stuck with creating a good relationship with anyone in school. She can be the most annoying person on earth and we did fight. I can be a jerk sometimes too. But the thing is, we'll do anything to make things right. We reconcile after we fight and try to understand where each other is coming from. I do love her.
Maybe.. forever is not what we'll always get.
We grew up, still best friend, until I had to move to another school because my parents told me to. I moved in the middle of my 8th grade. Pretty awful.. because everyone already has their group, their circle.. and oh there's me. The new kid.
God my first 2 months was terrible. I can't help but feeling lonely. and I miss her.
You know what hurt me the most? The memory.
I was always be the first to reach school compared to my peers. Before I moved school, I always come at 6.15am, and happened almost every time - my best friend called me with her loud voice from the door and say "GOODMORNING"
Of course even after I moved school, I can still see her. However, the difference is noticeable. You know, I was having new friend, new experiences, and so was she. We were no longer have the same topic like we used to and we're busy with our own stuff. When I met her after a long time, I looked at her.. and she is just not the same person she was. Not her fault obviously. It's just the part of growing up. Which makes me really really sad.
I know I would never regret my choice to change school. But the only regret that I have is that she's not there anymore to greet me when I come back.
We've outgrown each other..
Do you ever feel the same?
Do you ever feel the same?
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