I. Forgive. You.

Just like the title, I'll repeat that again. She said.
I, Forgive, you. 



I forgive you, little me
for being so small
unnoticeable - no one to remember,
she said.


I forgive you, young me

for giving your trust excessively

being blind about what they truly are

for giving your hand again and again

even though disappointment is what you always get

I forgive you, older me
for choosing the wrong path
making everything one hundred times harder
for never blend in,
being alone
or maybe, choose to be alone


I forgive you, mois
for your love was great and twinge at the same time
leaving
when you thought you have taught me so much
but no, you took it, left me with nothing
and nothing has ever felt great
anymore


I forgive you, ami
for never care, or even ask
mouths were shut,
but opened behind at the same time
for never considered my existence,
my thinking,
my worth,
yet you still claimed to be part of my life
for disappointing, again and again
until
my eyes never want to see even the slightest shadow of yours


I forgive you, père
for you didn't allow me to leave that time
took judgement,
without noticing I was on the thin line
between
subsist and perish


I forgive you, ma ville
for striking me with bad and bad memories
until I have no desire to call you my own



"I forgive you" is a strong line.
After being broken for so long, searching for the answer, how to keep up with life again. How to start feeling things again, to stop the tears.. She finally find the answer.

A friend of mine said,

"you cannot start a new phase, if you do not make peace with past"

I am done fighting with my past. 

Because 
I forgive you:)

Thankyou.